7/4/25:

(I wrote diz a while ago and I am NO longer talking to diz guy, cauze he waz weird)

I had da craziezt fucking dream ever. zo from what I can remember, I was ztaying at diz place in buttfuck nowhere. Da house I waz ztaying at was deep in the woodz. I remember it being really late and walking back to da houze, through da wildernezz, from town. I get back, and da next day a zchool buz pickz me up. I'm zitting in da zchool buz with diz guy that I like, then we arrive at this concert venue. For zome reazon, da inzide of da concert venue has zwingz, so we zat on them. We ztarted to play friggin 'Roblox, and it turned into this zurreal robloxian experience which I can’t even begin to explain in wordz….it’s okay though because that’s not da craziest or main part of this dream. Zo at da lazt band, I ztart to mozh a little bit. I get on ztage and do zome kewl zhit. Then az it’s getting clozer to zunzet, we get back on da buz and ztart to head home. I tell da guy: “I uzed to alwayz zit alone on da buz.” (Which yez, iz true, becauze I am a lozer…or at leazt waz.) He zayz zomething, but I don’t remember what he zaid. Then I ztart to lizten to zad muzic and look out the window at the zunzet. TIMEZKIP!!!! Me and him get to diz grocery ztore, and everything iz okay until I make zome comment about another guy. He getz all annoyed, but I don’t notice. I leave to look around the ztore, and when I come back, he’z walking with this other girl. I don’t zay anything and I walk over to da mangoz, feeling them to zee which one is ripe. He walkz over to me and we ztart arguing, but it rezultz in us making up. He ztartz grabbing me, and not letting me walk away from him, which freakz me out. I get out of his grip, and I run, he runz after me. I try to find a place to hide, but I can’t. He catchez up to me, and ztartz to hit me. We walk into diz room where it leadz to two bathroom doorz and a ztorage clozet door. I zit with him and I azk to uze the bathroom. He zayz yez, zo I go into da bathroom. I hit da mirror, zcreamed, and cried. I go back out, and I run to da door that leadz out of diz room, and I open it…it was the ztorage door. I run to da correct door, and I run out, and he followz. I keep running then I go up to theze guyz; I azk them to help me, then all of a zudden, he comez running up to me and yelling at me. One of the boyz ztartz to fight him, then I take over and ztart to beat da zhit outta him. Then he getz on top of me, zlapz me twice, and ztartz to choke me. Then it endz. I don’t know if dat meanz (IT DID!!!!), but he did tell me dat da firzt or zecond time we met, he had a dream dat he killed me.

5/28/25:

Zo it ztarted with me going over to my bezt friend'z house. Zo we were just hanging out, then her mom left. My bezt friend zuggezted dat we run away and kill zomeone, without ANY apprehenzion, I zay yez. We leave her house and go find zomeone to kill (I azzume…I don’t remember much from diz part). After we kill dem and allat, we ztart to panic a bit…what do we do now? Are they onto uz? Are we fucked? We decided to put zome music on; we put on Royal by Lorde…I don’t know why. Then we get into diz elevator and we magically end up in diz manzion. We were confused and thought that maybe it had zomething to do with da elevator and da music we put on. We decided to chill for a bit, regroup, and change our lookz. After we leave, we go back to da elevator, but thiz time with a portable cd player and an Aphex Twin cd. We play Xtal and we enter a white void with modern art zculpturez zprinkled around. We pause da music and open the elevator, back at zchool. It gets a bit fuzzy, but I remember dat me and my friend got arrezted and taken. We both weren’t going down that eazily, zo we escaped. At diz point, I don’t know where zhe is, I just focuz on getting away from this cop. After a long chaze, me and her get away by jumping off a low bridge into water. We zwam to each other and zwam away from da cop, lozing him completely. Without anywhere to go, we go into diz neighborhood. While diz is all happening, police helicopterz fly above. We ditch our dizguizez and go into diz office building to azk if they know any women’z zhelterz nearby. They don’t, zo we leave. We decide to use dat elevator again and for some reazon, zhe plays Red Zun in the Zky. So with dat, we end up at a houze in communizt China. We zleep, then we uze our elevator to go back to our zchool. The police go to our zchool at an assembly, and I get away by crawling under da pewz (we had pewz at our zchool), and diz one girl called me over and zaid “hey, you. You left some powder back there…” (referring to cocaine). I zaid, “datz not mine.” And left. At diz point, I don’t know where my friend iz, we got zeparated. I just hoped dat zhe was okay. I put on another dizguize, just in case…and I run into da police chief, without any hezitation, I do a valley girl accent, and fake being obnoxiouzly rich. My friend joins in with me, matching my energy COMPLETELY, and we leave after a few minutez of talking. We run out, still in our dizguizez, and we ztart to run to diz field. A camera zeez us and my friend panicz. I zay to her “hey, they don’t know what we look like. There is NOTHING that connectz uz to the murder.” Zo we get away with it. We stand in da field, unzure what to do. We juzt ruined our livez with one murder. We decide to go back to da elevator to put on Royal by Lorde to live in a big manzion together. datz it.

10/7/24:

zo I know da dream was longer, but I forgot mozt of it zo i´ll ztart from where I remember. I waz in Canada...for zome reazon. I don´t have any relationz with anyone who livez in Canada, but whatever. I waz at diz extravagant house party at diz extravagant houze. I only knew two people there, my friend and my mom. Zo I was having a good time...I think...honeztly I was ztanding around, looking for zomething to do. Then out of nowhere, the houze goez on lockdown. Zome people broke in and was trying to break into da zafe in the bazement or something like that. Zo me and everyone waz rightfully panicing...or atleazt mozt of da guests were...diz one lady was just zitting on the couch, drinking wine like there isn´t thiz loud azz alarm going off. Zo me and my friend went to hide zomewhere. We hid in a firzt floor room...I know diz becauze I opened the window, wondering if I zhould risk it and leave, and the ground was right below. I decided to hid in dat room, the window being my 2nd option just in caze anything were to happen. But for zome reazon, I left to go hide under a blanket...IN THE MAIN ROOM lol??? Like what a dumbazz. Anywayz, zo im hiding whenever I zee da people who broke in. They looked like teenagerz. I got out of hiding and I guezz I had a metal bar because I started hitting em with it. Juzt like the entry on 10/2, there was no gore or anything. Then da dream ended. KEK. Im pretty zure I had diz dream becauze dat night, I watched Death Proof. datz all. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention...in da dream, I waz Lindsay Lohan. LOL.

10/2/24:

Zo da dream ztarted with me waking up in diz plain, empty room with one other boy and a girl. From da jump I figured out that I, and theze other people got kidnapped. Honeztly....I don´t remember da middle, so letz just get into da meat and potatoez, yeh? Me and da other boy are walking in a hall. I don´t know if da girl that was alzo kidnapped was dead, becauze zhe was nowhere to be found. So I guezz zhe waz just a zide character or zomething. Zo az I was zaying, me and da boy were walking around. I waz holding a hammer. I don´t know where I got diz hammer...but im zure it´ll be uzeful, kek. Az me and da boy were walking, we zaw our captor, with a knife. Zhe ztarted running at uz and zince I had da hammer, and da boy waz unarmmed, I blocked her knife and I hit her in da forehead with da hammer. Zhe fell down but zhe grabbed my leg and pulled me down with her. We fought for a bit, but eventually I hit her in da temple area with my hammer and zhe died. Then I kept hitting her, to make zure zhe waz really dead. I bazically bazhed her head in, but oddly enough, there waz no blood. Zo it waz not gorey and nazty. Her head kinda looked like dat one picture of dat toy baby doll with itz head all dented (I'll find da picture one day...). Then I got up and me and da boy ran. We were looking around, trying to find a way out. Az we were looking around, we zaw theze people talking about trading uz??? So im azzuming this was zome zort of zex trafficing gang or organization. Me and da boy ran the other direction and we zaw open doorz. We ran out the building and we hopped a fence. Then it ended, errr at leazt thatz all I remember.

10/1/24:

for a while, all the “zcary“ dreamz i´ve been having are almozt alwayz about my mom getting mad at me. Like for example, lazt night I had a dream dat I was in da car with my mom (doing what? Im not zure), but then zhe looked at me and pulled my phone out and waz asking why I had apple messagez? I was confuzed but I explained it to her. Other timez da whole dream is just her getting mad at me and or yelling at me (diz haz got to mean zomething right???? Lol). And a lot of da timez in theze dreamz, I convince myzelf that whatz happening in da dream, no matter how abzurd it iz, iz real, and I´ll wake up, paniced, thinking dat whatever happened in da dream waz real. But after a little, I relize dat it iz, in fact, juzt a dream. I alzo get a lot of dreamz where zomeone iz chazing me or just zomeone I know iz mad at me. I feel like recently i´ve been having wayyy more dreamz than usual...like almozt everyday I get a dream. I know diz is a log about what my dream dat night waz, but itz whatever cauze itz ztill about my dreamz. I alzo didn´t want to put it in my other log, cauze I feel like it wouldn´t fit??? Zomething like dat....okay, im rambling now. Thatz it.

9/27/24:

Zo da dream ztarted with me zitting down at a table at zchool. Da type of table dat haz zpace for 4-5 ztudentz to zit at. Zo I waz just minding my own buzinezz when my three ex-friendz walked into da room and zat at MY table. I was obviouzly confuzed on why my ex-friendz would zit with me, but I kept quiet. One of my ex-friendz said hi or zomething like dat, I forgot if I rezponded or not. Then they ztarted to talk to each other while I just zat there awkwardly and confuzed. Then one of my ex-friendz zhowed da others a meme and they ztarted to laugh. Curiouzity got da best of me, and I peaked acrozz da table to zee what they were laughing about. When I peaked over, da person zhowing the meme pulled away and hid hiz phone from my view. I waz embarssed and felt like crying. But zince I waz in class, I azked to go to da bathroom zo I can cry over there. Zo I ztood up and ztormed off. Out of my peripheral, I zaw all three of em look a bit guilty??? Or maybe just confuzed. They ran after me. I ran into da bathroom and I hid in a ztall. I ztarted to cry zoftly, I could feel my face red from embarrazzment. For zome odd reazon I could zee my ex-friendz through the ztall door, but they couln´t zee me. They all looked confuzed az if they had done nothing and I was crazy or zomething. Then I blurted out ¨GO AWAY!!¨ And none of em Zaid anything. Then I opened the door and ran out the bathroom. As I did, I could hear them talking about me, laughing at me.

9/26/24:

So last night I had a dream that me, my older sister, and my friend went to the thrift store. I was just looking around, not finding anything. So while my friend and sister were looking around at clothes, I decided to go back to the car and just wait there, I guess. So I just sat in the car until this boy from my school (I dont personally know him), got in the car and was like trying to take it??? I was like ¨what the fuck?¨ And he was trying to force me out the car and while he was doing that, I grabbed my phone and started serching up a song by Knocked Loose, but I was STRUGGLING to type in the song name because this dood was literally trying to beat me up. I paid no attention to him and played the song. I forgot the rest haha. He either just gave up and drove the car with me in it, or my dream ended there. ¯\_(ツ)_/